When I finished high school and entered art school it solved one problem but created another. For the following 3 years I fell into a deep depression as if I was having a melt down from all the hard work I went through to get to where I am. Before my priority was to survive highs school, which I used, my art for but then it left me with no idea on how to survive college. I was angry at the world to the point where I isolated myself and missed out on having a real college experience. Until my fourth year I decided to take up martial arts as a physical activity, which saved my life and turned things around. I joined Professional Taekwondo on 23rd and 3rd just across the street from the main SVA building. My social life improved, I had my first solo art exhibition and it helped make me an official college graduate. I was unstoppable, thank you Grandmaster Kim!
But once again all hell broke loose after I finished college my depression came back due to how lost I was. I had no idea what was next in my life. I was even having second thoughts about whether I wanted to continue pursuing art or not since there is no guarantee that I was going to make it as one. Due to how brutal art school can be I became aware of how difficult being an artist can really be and boy is it tough sometimes (Of course I know now that it all depends on where you’re looking to go with it.) so I took it as a sign that it’s time to stop with the art for while and that finding a job should be my main priority. A year after I graduated I landed on my first job in an art related field and it was such a great feeling to the point where I started weaning my way back into my art making. The more time I spent at the job the more inspiration I was constantly absorbing. From there it all went uphill. I have learned that after art school that if it’s still your intention to keep producing work it only gets better.
What this whole experience has taught me is that once you accomplish something it doesn’t end there. When one journey ends another one begins. For example, if one of your goals is to have a solo show in a major museum and you eventually accomplish that, don’t stop there. Did you accomplish something? Yes. Will it lead to any future opportunities? It can but it will be up to you to keep putting yourself out there to look for them. As I have mentioned in one of my previous blogs where I talked about “That Big Break,” personally I think “The Big Break ” is just a myth. And I think it’s dangerous to think that eventually one of your goals will going to lead to “The Big Break.” I say come up with as many goals as possible that you want to accomplish. The longer the list is the better. Once you accomplish one, celebrate then cross it off and move to the next. Keep the list growing at the same time. It’s a list that lasts a lifetime with no end to it.